Mississippi...

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Frustrations...

It has been awhile since I had a good rant about the school that I work in. Arg. I am so tired of the all of the bs surrounding the school district and school I work in. Interestingly enough, the topics in our leadership class seem quite pertinent to the everyday problems I encounter. Why is everyone only worried about self-preservation? I swear the school that I work in could be a great school if only people were not worried about their jobs/careers. Can you imagine this being your only motivation to teach or serve an administrative role? In the field of education or in any field-- how do people like this function? Do they go home and relax and not worry about their detriment on society? If my only motivation to be a teacher was keeping my job-- my students would not learn anything. I would turn in all paperwork on time, even if I didn't understand what my "boss" wanted. I would never question the reasons behind changes, and I would never object to anything because my students and my classroom would be the last thing on my mind. I am soooo overly tired of ridiculousness. The district wants every middle school classroom to look exactly the same and no one seems to mind that this mold may or may not fit every teacher or every student. NONE of the suggestions I have received as a teacher have made an impact on my students learning. If anything they have weakened my spirit to teach. Not only that-- these people have the nerve to interrupt instruction to bring in more bullshit. What?????? Coming here, I was certain that I might stay for a while. That was a pipe dream. I want out. I want to stay for my students, but after this year. I am GONE! I respect anyone willing to stay, but I know I could be in other places where I know that I could actually make a difference because the people I work with want the same thing. Most of the faculty and administration don't actually like students or education-- it is just a job and a paycheck. I could never think in those terms. It is education. It is a noble thing, not a monetary thing! At first I was fooled that people were just pretending and that their true motives were pure-- nope. They really do not care about students learning and reaching their potentials.

There are things to do...

While living in the Clarksdale my husband and I went to almost every business there. We were always looking for places that felt comfortable. Our favorite place by far was Ground Zero in Clarksdale. Especially when there were not very many people (almost any weekday and some low key weekends). There you can play pool for free. Unless you decide to bet money on your game with some very talented pool sharks. It has a fun relaxed atmosphere. What was nice about Ground Zero was that it felt as if we weren't in Clarksdale. There are people that come from all over to visit and work there. It is fun to look at the graffiti and just chill. The "heat" of the Delta's racism can really be overwhelming in almost any place of business-- and at Ground Zero everything and everybody was chill. I highly recommend going there. Also right down the street is a little organic and plant store that also serves coffee and fresh baked goods. I also liked escaping there. Mostly what I learned after many various explorations was that I had to make where I lived an excellent place to hang out. Really, it is very necessary. There are no movie theaters (unless you want to see ALL of your students at once). Buy a used couch, plants, rugs, etc-- make your living room the place to be and relax. Light candles at dinner and play soothing music. That is what saved me last year.


Now living in Jackson, I am still exploring places that are fun. I live in the Fondren area and there are some pretty neat restaurants right up the street. Aladdin (730 Lakeland Drive,) is an Arabic restaurant that has a great atmosphere and is fairly inexpensive (around 6-7 dollars)-- they also have good veggie friendly meals. There is a coffee house called cups down the street from the middle eastern restaurant that is nice as well. Not that I really have time to go to these places often, but once in awhile we venture out of the routine. I feel like I have less time to explore than last year (which seems impossible), but the paperwork of JPS is unbelievable. I have very little advice-- other than there are plenty of esay options-- movies, bowling, bars, etc.